12/29/15

Fancy Dinner






One morning about a month ago, Trip decided to set the table "fancy" for me. He did a fantastic job, and it led to an entire day of planning a fancy dinner. The kids invited friends, had a fancy photo shoot, and J brought home food from a fancy restaurant for the parents to serve to the kiddos. It was all magical and so much fun! All of the kids got really in to it and used their very best manners. I think this needs to become an annual event!

Chickens!

That's right folks, we got chickens!

J asked if we were putting ourselves in a box. Four kids, homeschooling, chickens ...

Well, we might be. But it's pretty fun!







Date to the Ballet




I had the opportunity to take Anna Kate to the San Antonio Ballet's student production of Snow White with some friends from our Classical Conversations group. It was such a special time with my biggest girl and I relished in every minute. I forget sometimes how much having a baby in my arms keeps me from holding my other little ones. With my arms and lap free, I held Anna Kate for the entire hour and a half show. And I LOVED it!

Anna Kate loved having the one on one time with me, she loved the beautiful dancers, especially the girls dressed up like deer. She also followed the storyline pretty well. After the queen dressed as a witch poisoned Snow White, I asked Anna Kate what she thought  would happen next. She whispered in my ear, "I think the queen will come back and tell Snow White she is sorry and then they can be friends."

Oh, Anna Kate, I hope you always see the world through such a beautiful lens!

Halloween 2015





3!!





Just to document all of the silly, grumpy, sweet, and salty moments with this little man... He is 3! Three is definitely better than 2 in terms of fits and his ability to communicate and play with his older siblings. That's not to say the fits are gone - they are still around - just not as frequent. 

Wills' favorite things as a three year old are trucks, sports, television, curious george books, and his animals. He sleeps and eats great, just like big brother and sister. He is very coordinated and loves anything involving a ball and net. For Christmas, he got his own big soccer nets and he loves them! Following the rules of soccer - not so much. Not being the winner - also not so much!

He plays best with Anna Kate but he also fights the most with her. I am sure this will continue throughout their lives as they are the closest in age.

Every night when the kids are tucked in bed, Wills sneaks out to have one final "goodnight" with mom and dad. He comes in our room, tells us some silly story (most of which we can't understand), and then we typically give him one of his many animals and tell him that "Puppy" needs to go night night. He hugs his animal, blows us lots of kisses and says "I love you" while he walks himself back to bed. This has become one of our favorite rituals with this guy. As the third, he doesn't get a lot of special time, so it is nice to count on this little nightly visit.

Wills continues to be Mr. Independent. He will wonder off to explore something that has caught his eye, never letting me know where he is headed. It has gotten so bad that a friend made me a shirt that says "Where's Wills" across the front. He is my only child that I worry about constantly. The pros of this trait are that he can also self-entertain. If we are outside, he will go play in the chicken coop or just in a pile of dirt and be perfectly content without big brother and sister. 

Some stories - 

At the library, he snuck away from me while I was doing school with Trip. I couldn't find him anywhere, and finally found him going number 2 in the bathroom with the door wide open!

At the zoo, he followed two ducks and almost fell into the river they waddled in to.

At home, he feels confident to walk down our busy street to our neighbors 4 houses away (I do not allow him to do this, he just walks out the door!).

Favorites :
Movie - Halloween George, Grinch, Mickey's Monster Musical
Television - Paw Patrol, PJ Masks, Mickey Mouse, Curious George
Book - Curious George
Toy - all of his animals, or anything Anna Kate is playing with

Mr. William,
You are such a sweetie. You are loving, you are kind, you are funny, you love people, and you are so smart. There are so many things about you that I admire, and I think if you want you could be the next President. Being such a dynamic little guy means that you have a big responsibility to use your talents to the glory of God. People will listen to you, so make sure you tell them about your Savior. 

And always know that even though you are comfortable in your independence, your mom and dad are here for you. We love you unconditionally. We are your biggest fans.


11/14/15

Elizabeth's Newborn Photos






Elizabeth's Story

Little Izzy,
You were my longest pregnancy and came only 4 days early. I waited for you anxiously because it was my goal not to use any drugs after having a scary episode with pitocin when your brother was born. I planned as well as I could by switching to a midwife and MD group and hiring a doula to prepare me and coach me through labor. Honestly, when I told people about my wishes for a drug free delivery, I was met with blank stares or shock. Sometimes even rude comments, like "WHY would you want to do THAT!" I think even leading up to the whole thing, your dad was not completely on board (and certainly not during it ... more on that later).

For about 24 hours before you were born I did not feel good. I felt nauseous. Like first trimester nauseous. I thought I must be sick. That was something I didn't ever experience with your brothers and sister. I skipped church that morning because I assumed I was coming down with something.

At around 1:30 I tried to take a nap with your siblings. When I laid down on the bed, my water broke. I was excited and hopeful and contractions started coming about every 10 minutes. The pain was intense but manageable. Very slowly, over the next 5 hours the contractions made there way to every 8 minutes apart with increasing intensity. I thought I might be in for a long night.

Your brothers and sister played at the Walker's house until about 7:30 when they came home and Ms. Aubri took over in taking care of them. Your Cupcake arrived at our house sometime around 7.

Rebecca, my doula, arrived around 5:30 and helped with rubbing my back and squeezing my hips to relieve some of the pressure of the contractions. She suggested we walk around outside. The night was perfect. The weather was perfect, no humidity. The sun was going down. One of the trees in our backyard had just bloomed that day and that distracted me from the pain for a little while. I leaned on your dad for support.

At around 7:30 we moved back inside because I didn't feel like I could stand any longer. I thought a bath might help. When we walked inside, I could hear that your siblings were in the bathtub down the hall, and I thought "Oh no, there isn't going to be enough hot water!" I was right. When we ran a bath the water only stayed warm enough to cover my legs.

Rebecca tried pouring hot water over my back, and your dad even brought in boiling water from the kitchen. Looking back, this is funny to me. A little like it must have been a long time ago when everyone had home births, midwives, and no running hot water.

The midwife had suggested I come in to the hospital when the contractions were about 5 minutes apart. At this point the contractions were still only 7 minutes apart. While I was in the bath I hit that moment of panic. I was so uncomfortable and cold and the contractions were no longer bearable. I had to get out. The second I stepped out of the tub a contraction hit that was crazy. I grabbed your dad in panic and almost fell on the ground. I said, "We have to get to the hospital, I have to have an epidural NOW." I was begging. I was whispering so that my doula didn't hear because I didn't want her to convince me otherwise.

From that moment on, my contractions were excruciating and every 2 minutes. They went from 7 minutes apart to 2 minutes and I thought I might die. We all agreed it was time to go. I couldn't sit in the car, so I hunched over your car seat (it was already installed in the back seat) with lots of pillows. Our house was 30 minutes from the hospital and the roads were under construction the whole way. I begged your dad as we drove to call ahead to the anesthesiologist and make sure he was ready and waiting for me at the entrance to the hospital. Your dad (knowing that this was an impossible request) made fake phone calls to the hospital to ease my distress!

Once we arrived at the hospital, we parked in the parking garage where we were told there was a bridge straight to labor and delivery. The moment I stepped out of the car I fell to my hands and knees. It was the only way I could position myself to make it through the contraction. My doula asked if I felt pressure in my bottom. I did, but it wasn't anything intense like I thought it would be. She knew that meant I was close to having you. Your Cupcake ran in to the hospital to find a wheelchair and I just remember thinking, there is NO way I am sitting in a wheelchair! The thought of moving into an upright position seemed impossible, and I had no intentions of leaving the comfort of my hands and knees on the floor of the parking garage!

From that point on, my eyes were mostly closed. Your dad managed to get me into the wheelchair. In the brief moments that I opened my eyes, I can remember seeing lots of nurses running with me down the hallway, one of them asking in an annoyed tone if I was trying to have this baby at home.

A short 15 minutes after we made it to our room you were in my arms! In an instant I was overwhelmed with joy and gratitude and had completely forgotten the past 9 hours. And you were as awake as I was, eyes wide open taking it all in, this new world you had entered. You were so much more alert than all of your siblings, and nursed like a pro. I was up and on my feet shortly after you were born taking pictures of you while your dad drove to the airport to pick up your Gigi. I think when all was said and done he was probably more exhausted than I was!




As I post this, you are already 7 months old! You are such a blessing to us and are full of spirit and joy! And even though, in true fourth child fashion, it takes me longer to write about you. You should know that you are surrounded by love from both of your parents and all of your siblings. We love you little Izzy!

7/16/15

Four!!


(I wrote this post in March and realized it was still in my draft box.)

- 50th percentile for height, 40th percentile for weight
- Knows letters and sounds, writes many letters
- Counts well past 20
- Still says "fuhtend" instead of pretend, and "flee" instead of three

I love this picture of her. While her brothers were jumping with J, she was just as thrilled to sit and talk with me. My little girl. My little friend. 

She is 4!

Every year I say it, but Anna Kate always seems a year ahead of her age. It wouldn't really be shocking to me for her to start kindergarten next year. She will start Classical Conversations with Trip in the fall and I know she is ready for it. I think she is most ready to have a baby sister. The role she was meant to play! 

Lately AK has been a Mama's girl. I think she is just ready not to be surrounded by boys. She likes crafts and stuffed animals, and having things neat and tidy. She likes to try to take care of her little brother - although this is not his favorite thing.

She has the most fabulous imagination and can be very silly, but usually takes her play very seriously. She lines her animals and things up in her room in an orderly fashion and is so proud of how she has "cleaned" her room. She would save every scrap of trash to create a project out of if I would let her. Her drawings are very detailed and creative at the same time. She could spend all day at the art table. Like her brother, she comes up with very elaborate projects, and I rarely am able to provide the supplies or talent that she wants.

Anna Kate is my most independent child. She would play with friends (or babysitters, or grandparents, or aunts and uncles) all day long. She is never afraid to be apart from us. We try not to take this personally! AK is also funny about affection. She will give out hugs all day long, but declares that she does not like kisses. She tells elaborate stories. She loves little things. 

She is the sweetest, and the saltiest kid around and will one minute say something loving and in the next breath speak her truth with no love. For instance, "Anna Kate, did you have fun today at your friends house?" ... "I had a little bit of fun. But not a lot. It would have been more fun if ..." Or often she will proclaim, "This is the best day ever!" over something relatively simple. But when I plan a day of fun activities with just the two of us, she will sadly tell me at the end of the day that I do not play with her for long enough. 

Needless to say, she is a little hard to please!

Her Gigi would tell me that she is just like I was at that age.

Anna Kathleen,
You are my truth teller. I pray that you would come to know the most important truth of Jesus Christ and that it will be this truth that you proclaim unapologetically. I also pray that the Holy Spririt will change your heart so that you will speak the truth in love.

You are my creative, funny, and spirited girl. I love your freckles, your cute little voice, your long stories, and your ability to play for hours independently and at the same time make friends in an instant.

I love you with all of my heart.





3/20/15

Six!!

His birthday breakfast request: PB&J, donut holes, scrambled eggs


I'm not even sure how it's possible, but my first born is 6 years old!

Trip is so much like his dad, that I should just let J write this post! He is the sweetest big brother, which often causes us to place really high expectations on his ability to look after his little sister and brother. But he seems to be proud of that responsibility. He is also very social like his dad. He wants to be entertained by activity (or television, or games) all of the time, which can be a little exhausting since he is homeschooled and sometimes his siblings - and his mom - need a break.

Trip is a big thinker (should I repeat, just like his dad). He comes up with these projects or activities that are incredibly complicated (and often literally impossible) and gets easily frustrated when they cannot come to fruition. It's hard as his parents to encourage his big ideas, but also to explain that sometimes those ideas take along time - like years - to see accomplished. 

In school, Trip's favorite subject is Latin. Although he really does lead his class in all of the memorization. And while it has taken a while, he is really starting to love writing and keeps a journal of pictures and little sentences. He writes sweet notes to his brother and sister and parents and I find them torn out all over the house. I tried to explain that he can just keep them in the journal, but I think he wants to give the notes as gifts, so the paper trail is endless.
note to Wills - his best friend
learning cursive


For their birthday party, Trip and Anna Kate decided they wanted to do something together. We had their party at Thin Air, a trampoline and "extreme air sport" park in San Antonio. It was a rainy week, so this worked out perfectly and I didn't have to do much to set things up or host people. Ideal for a really pregnant mama! All of the kids had a blast!

Dear Bubba,
Your dad and I are so thankful for you and we love you beyond measure! You lead your little group of siblings with such tenderness and patience for a six year old. You are smart and kind, silly and serious. I am most impressed with your ability to love unconditionally and to forgive instantly and without resentment. These are gifts from God and He will use them to do great things in and through you. Already, you are a reflection of Christ to your family and friends. I often pray that I could love the way you do.

Our prayer is that you would have a deep and personal relationship with Jesus Christ. That knowing Him would remove all fear from your life as you trust in His plan. That He would continue to develop the loving attitude that He has already placed in your little six-year-old personality.

We love you so much!


Big 2 (and a half) Year Old

I am 6 months behind in publishing this post because I am 6 months behind in getting him to the pediatrician for his 2 year checkup! Pitiful! His appointment is still a month away, so I will go ahead and write while I have a minute...

Height:
Weight:

Development: Wills loves shapes and numbers. He knows the difference between a hexagon and pentagon. He can identify random shapes like a rhombus. He loves pointing out shapes and counting. Physically Wills is very coordinated. He wants to do everything his big brother and sister do. He loves all sports and has great hand-eye coordination. He climbs and jumps off of everything and rarely learns his lesson after falling and getting hurt.

Likes/Dislikes: Wills loves to dance and as he says, "show us his moves" which include a lot of hand rolls, booty shaking, and running in circles and jumping. He is a rough little boy and gets in trouble all of the time for hitting. In typical third-born fashion, Wills struggles to share and always seems to think he is going to get a toy taken away from him. Although in reality, both Trip and Anna Kate are very sweet with him most of the time.

Stories: Wills is very independent and sometimes just goes quietly and does what he wants to do. At our Monday school group, he escaped a fenced in playground without anyone noticing and made his way across a parking lot and into the school building where he found me! At church, he escaped a baby gated area and made his way onto an elevator before anyone could catch him. This has happened so many times under my supervision, that I don't hold it against the caregivers, although they are always very apologetic.

Six months ago, I wrote, "Turning 2 has actually been a less "terrible" experience with Wills and sort of a turning point in terms of his ability to communicate with us." Boy was I wrong! My opinion today is that he is easily my most difficult toddler. And that is saying a lot, because AK was very strong willed. My theory is that he learned from the best (Anna Kate) and has upped his game! His fits are astronomical. While AK could get you with the sheer pitch of her screams, Wills adds in the physical element swinging his arms and flailing his body to make the fit especially dramatic. Thankfully he is to the point where he understands the mere mention of a spanking and knows to turn off the fit. Anna Kate never really could turn it off until she was ready.

Wills can be the most cuddly, sweet boy when he wants. I soak those moments up because most of the time he is just too busy! 

Most of Wills' affection is directed to his animals. He has about 20 that he sleeps with every night and chews on their tails, ears, hands like a pacifier. He loves his animals!!

 

Those cheeks! Someone told me the other  day that God made toddlers so stinking cute because if they weren't their parents would toss them to the curb! I thought that was funny. He is cute!

William Randal,
You are an adventure! You bring joy, laughter, frustration and excitement to our lives and I love every bit of you. You are smart, brave, strong, and loving. You make people laugh! As you've become a big 2 1/2 year old your personality has developed in so many ways. You are dynamic!

Your Dad and I pray that your strong and courageous personality will bring glory to God. That you will love Him zealously and that your passion will draw others to the Lord.

"Now who is there to harm you if you are zealous for what is good? But even if you should suffer for righteousness' sake, you will be blessed. Have no fear of them, nor be troubled, but in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect..." 1 Peter 3:13-15

We love you buddy!

Sleepless Nights

I am 39 weeks and one day pregnant with baby girl. Each day feels like a week, and each night even longer with contractions, insomnia, heartburn, and just an aching body. I know the reality - that it will all be over SO soon and I will have sleepless nights with a newborn (and three others who wake up occasionally). And the even greater reality - that one day I will get a full night of rest every night and I will be sad because my babies are all grown up.

I found this article on the Desiring God blog and just love the reminder that it provides to trust in the Lord for each moment, even when I am exhausted!

Sleeplessness causes us to look away from ourselves — our capacity, our resources, our energy reserve, our mental acumen, our physical strength, and our careful planning and scheming — and it causes us to rely solely on him who “does not faint or grow weary” (Isaiah 40:28). It is there, in the middle of the night, with the baby — or computer, or hospital IV, or mental stressor — that we find ourselves coming to the end of ourselves. And the end of ourselves is a very good place to be.
The reason we fear sleeplessness so much is because we know that we will come face to face with our limitations, our weaknesses, our vulnerabilities. We will find we are not all-sufficient, that we cannot provide what we need to get through the next day. But “fear not,” our Father tells us, “for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand” (Isaiah 41:10).
God himself is the only All-Sufficient One. He always has been. He always will be. He brings sleeplessness into our lives so that we will remember this. In this place of exhaustion, we find God’s grace to be ever present.

Wills at Bat



This boy is such a BOY! This video is from about 6 months ago, and I am still amazed at his coordination. Whether he's climbing, jumping on the trampoline, or hitting a baseball, golf ball, soccer ball ... he is always spot on! I think he takes after my dad and brother in so many ways, and this is one of them. I love seeing strong genetics at work.